Some like to say they are something other than human...

An alien race, a demon, an angel, a vampire, a shadow.

I say, you are in a human body, having a human experience. So start enjoying it already.

Someday,
when you are incarnated on another planet, solar system or dimension -
you will say "I am human," and it will mean something greater.

It will be special, unique and powerful.

You will be proud of your heritage.

Realize
that to have this human experience is a Gift greater than money,
heartbreak, drama and loss. It will be all these things and more -
Love, Compassion, Depth, Mystery - but above all...

It will be Beautiful - in all its nitty gritty detail.

And you will miss it then - as much, if not more, than you agonize over it now.

Carpe diem, motherfuckers, what have you got to lose?

-Ashe, 10/20, 1:20am

dreams in the darkest hours i hold my breathe heaviness settles as i sink into the mattress moments flicker as the mind wanders over chasing shadows of echoes of lovers landscape breathless, weightless, my beautiful illusion leaves blow, light rustles in waves of slow motion dancing in silence, whispers filling the air and im flat on my back, i sigh and try not to care that you look but dont see and you touch but dont feel when you hear you're not there and im laying here bare you push me away and im not even charging denying my entry into the heart of your longing i just want to feel the sweat in your grip your breath ripe with passion, embraced in your lips landscape is breathless, as the pendulum swings silence is broken with the weight of our screams your face is obscured but i always know it's you reaching inside me like only you do and you look but dont see and you touch but dont feel when you hear you're not there and we're locked in this stare i awake drenched in sweat, as your memory fades from my head to the horror of you haunting me once again in my bed confusion sets in, and i never know what to think visions of you, in my waking thoughts and sleep

More lyrics that may some day become a tune that will make your heart jump out of your chest. Spaceballs style. Landscapes exchanging loaded glances fleeting moment of electricity feeling you looking at me wondering if you know what i'm thinking wind whispers softly across my skin gooseflesh and butterfly activity your knowing smile, your eyes, hesitation tugs at me, begging me to look beneath hunger, your loaded smile thunder, my heart beating wild raging, like an anger forlorn Riding me, like a wave storms the shore frustration hangs me in the balance of what i want and what seems right lay it all to see, so bare wishing you'd give me that come hither stare i cant forget the image now a look burned in my soul of two star crossed and fated lovers destined but when, or why, or how hunger, drinking you in deep thunder, pounding rhythmic beats raging, pent up centrifugal force Ride me, like a wave storms the shore Fall 2006

These are lyrics, one day they may turn into a song: Bide My time What am I, but a passing drift upon your ocean Who am I, to say at all how it feels to be so alive To be this high, in cultured lows To only know this spark I find hidden deep inside This flight, I soar, hovering just beyond your reach Out of sight, out of time, winds licking your skin clean Barely audible I tumble into your endearing refrain Sinking silently to the bottom, the river, of a digital embrace Bide my time, idle here Bide my time Bide my time, it’s quiet here Just beyond your reach Fall 2006

Just for the record I don't really think my poetry is bad, I don't think it's amazing either but it will do....for now. The Mirror why is it that when i look into your eyes i see only myself my own face staring back at me a fractal of non-existence you speak to me in riddles of no-words and emotions my own preferred communications a thousand me's inside a thousand you's forever bound by eternal grace then how come when i look into the mirror i barely recognize my own face my hands feel odd my feet skip a beat and everything moves in slow motion on fire in water wind blows softly through my sand each grain taken and sifted away quintessence awakens the mirror fogs over and no longer is there even a me darkness opens wide and i find the no-me surrounded by simple no-things at all in that moment i realize what it means to simply be no-thing once more for it seems as long as i've felt it i was never separate at all the darkness reveals an expansive blue sky and white clouds float casually on by in that moment i realize that i've always been at home all along theres nowhere to go and no-things to see just this moment we share between you and me worlds and universes entire illusory creations demons and angels unite in a dance underneath it all there simply is no-thing the beauty of the simplicity of the all take my hand and take flight on my eternal kiss and realize you were home all along Fall 2006